Her Essence

Her Essence

I miss her so much that my heart feels torn . She’s gone
I know i will never see that sweet smile on my little girls face again. She’s gone
I will never hear “Ma”, drunk or sober
I will never get to laugh with her again. She’s gone
I won’t live her struggles and triumphs anymore
I won’t be able to stroke her hair and smell her
I’ll miss the little gap between her teeth
She is gone
She came from my body, her essence is my body
She is with me always because she is a part of me
She is here
Peace, tranquility, warmth


Celebration of Life


This is Sarah. I have blogged about her extensively. She passed away on August 4th. She was only 26 years old. She is my middle child and I love her deeply.
She was an alcoholic of the worst kind and lived on the streets of Denver.
Her celebration of life party is today. No dreary funeral.
Sarah loved life and was a free spirit. She lived her short life on her own terms.
She died of a seizure.
She is dearly missed and I will take her with me everywhere in my heart and soul.

B.G. Bradley

Death Wish

Just got back from hospital visiting my daughter Sarah. She drank so much 80 proof vodka that her BAL was 652. She intends on drinking herself to death. Living on the frigid streets of Denver with a death wish. She’s been in ER’s and detoxes over 60 times.
I live daily in fear for her life but tough love can be really tough.
Sarah’s dad committed suicide when she was 13. He hung himself but she didn’t see it.
Ever since that early age she has been in trouble with the law and had many addictions. She’s been a lost soul. Therapy was ineffective for her. She was in denial.
My baby has suffered so, thru these years. She is at the end of her saddening life. She just wants to die and yesterday she almost did.
My last ditch effort to save her is to have her involuntarily committed thru the courts. That’s what I’m in the process of doing. They put Sarah on a five day hold to give me time to do what needs to be done. Please say a prayer for Sarah …..